Scene 89, Take 1-Ahh!
BY JENIECE TORANZO "GIDGET", MESA, ARIZONA - Last night, after coming back from dinner with Cyndi, Alec, Jacob, and Nick, we were visited by Mike, Shawn, and Carlos. I started logging again when everyone started rushing to the other room to go look at a clip. Oh brother. It was a clip of me smashing my finger in the slate on the last day of shooting. Everyone was laughing their heads off. If someone were to walk in and see us, they'd think we were crazy. Apparently, I'm a dork and I goofed up on the take. Instead of clapping the slate, I clapped my finger! "Scene 89, take 1-ahh!" Not a pleasant feeling I might add. The face says it all. Especially, when Alec played it in slow motion. Everyone apparently thought it was funny. Ok, I guess it was because I was laughing too. It's funny because I found out later that Alec was off in the distance with some of the other crew members and he kept saying (I coudn't hear him, though), "Don't mess up. Don't mess up. Don't mess up..." I think he jinxed me, thanks buddy. Good lookin out. He must have known I was going to mess up. I guess it's better to laugh at yourself than to be laughed at. Wait a minute, I did get laughed at. Nevermind that then. I guess all you can do is join them. Good times, good times.
I have been sick for about a week now. Pretty much since we have been back. Although I may not be feeling well and all I want to do is lay down, I can't help but want to be with the crew and help them with the logging and editing. Nothing matters to me now except being with the crew and working together on a common goal. I miss being with the crew and working together with them. Going to work at my normal job isn't the same anymore. I have a hard time concentrating now because all I want to do is be with the crew and share memories of Africa together. I just want to work and learn and become a better crew member. It's hard to explain to other people, other than the crew, what we went through in Zambia. All they hear are the words without the feelings attached to them. The person can't feel what we feel when we describe to them our feelings and experiences. It's a little sad because I want them to be able to feel what I felt and experienced. I want to have that connection with them. They can't possibly understand the experience we had unless they were there.
In a way I don't want this project to end because it just doesn't seem like it can ever be done. We all worked so hard to put this together and it will be exciting because we did it together. I hope to work on more projects like this one in the near future with the same crew because we are AMAZING. We have overcome many challenges and raised the bar for the next project to come. Sundance here we come!