"If you view all the things that happen to you, both good things and bad things as opportunities, then you operate out of a higher level of consciousness." - Les Brown -

One day I was crying and asking God "WHY?", but now am smiling and am not asking God "WHY?" That is why I have come to believe that sometimes even bad things may happen to us in order to provide us with an opportunity, the only problem is that we spent all our time crying and trying to find who is wrong so that we know who to blame. You have to let go of your most valued seed and bury it into the ground in order for you to get a harvest.

On this blog, I will in the next couple of weeks give you details of what inspired me to undertake this project and what I have and what I will be going through as we move towards the day when we shall be premiering BAD TIMING. I will give you my inspiration and motivation factors, and of course I will also pay glowing tribute to those that have contributed in any way, greatly or least, positively or negatively.

This being my very first posting, I think I should give you a loose-may of the beginning. Am not talking about the beginning of my vision, but the beginning of God's involvement in this project. The idea came a long time ago, but I invited God much later. As I was in the process of putting together my plans and preparing a project proposal, I suddenly found myself going through a lot of stress. My personal life was breaking up, I had problems back home, I was facing a lot of financial difficulties, one of my very dear and close friends who inspired me, was distancing herself from me. Things were just not going on well with me.

Just at about that time, I talked to Cyndi Greening and Dr. Edgar Ngoma about Executive Producing me, and they both agreed to give me their full commitment. With that commitment in offing, I thought of involving God in my plans. I dedicated the whole month of February to praying for success, I spent half an hour everyday giving the same kind of prayer.

1 Chronicles 4: 9-10 : : Jabez was more honorable than his brothers. His mother had named him Jabes, saying I gave birth to him in pain. Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, "Oh that you would bless me and enlarge my territory. Let your hand be with me and keep me away from harm so that I will be free from pain." And God granted his request.

I cried out the same prayer everyday, reminding God that am also Jabez(s) and that I needed Him to grant my request. I dedicated my plans to God asking him to enlarge them. I asked for the greatest support that only Him cane give. I gave this prayer everyday for the whole month of February. I was also mindful that even the greatest people in the Bible met obstacles, and I knew that at some points I may meet these obstacles. I remembered to recite the prayer of David in Psalms.

Psalms 23 : : "The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want ............ Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me, your rod and your staff, they confort me .......... Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever."

I should admit that God prepared me for the project. I told myself that it's going to be tough and that sometimes I may break down, but God will be with me all the way. A dear friend Lindsay Black (Linz) gave me a very valued present - The Prayer of Jabez. It is a highly motivating book, I should admit.

I never get suprised when I see the kind of commitment that Cyndi, Jeanette and all the students are putting into the project. Cyndi has become my Mum, Sister, Partner, Instructor, Friend, Producer and just anything. When God moves a car, He takes away the brakes so that it does not stop until when He accomplishes His plans. I should admit that the support and attention that I get from everyone involved is way beyond what I had expected. All in all, I just say God forgive me because sometimes I work so hard and I end up so tired that I give little time to God. However, to Him be the Glory forever and ever.

Later in the week, how it all started.